Aufffh, lepas SPM dah takpayah pergi sekolah. best ? do you think so?
I still remember freshly in my mind, how my last day kat maktab. Sedih betul. Kalau tadah air mata hari tu, boleh buat mandi sepuluh hari ! (sori, hiperbola siket huahaha)
Hari tu , just saya and dua kawan yang lain jea yang exam, Seni paper 2. Tapi ada lagi lahh kawan2 lain yg stay lepas exam bio,
they said want to create last memory kat maktab, and ada yg kononnya nk teman saya ;p
pagi tu, Khun tiba2 gerak saya dari tidur yang kurang lena, mata membengkak sebab menangis banyak sebelum tidur, ><
"Ayu dah nak balik, cepat" she said. Hearing that, I quickly bangun and lari ke dorm dia, tgk dia kemas2 barang. She introduced us her mom, :) Like mother, like daughter. Both are pretty .
Time jalan dengan Khun balik dorm Rohaida, nampak Intan dah pakai baju oren maktab , omg, no...!! I ran toward her and hug her tightly, and I burst into tears.
I hate that everyone is walking away from me. I hate being alone again. I hate when I have to lose my friends. I HATE FAREWELL.
One days before, I slept with Nani, for the last time, and that morning, I don't even want to wake up, I want the time to freeze, PLEASE. but, it's impossible. I know but I'm still hoping for the impossible. You can call me stupid for that ><'
That last day in maktab, I ate instant noodles with my beloved BFF, Khun and Square. We have fun, jokes around until one phone call. It seemed like Square's mother arrived. She had to go. She had to leave. Leave me! no! NO!
I tried to not burst into tears but , yea, I cried. I hug her and cried. We shared problems together, sometimes I talk to her till 4 in the morning (haha yea that's quite serious xD) yet she had to leave, and we can't see each other everyday anymore.
My exam starts at 2pm but that day I don't even practice but CRYING a loooot .T__T
Lepas tolong Khun bawak turun barang2 dia, I walked with her to the studio, she is on the way to the musolla, it's the same way.
I stepped on the studio, switched on the lamps, the fans, and I sat on the chair, staring at the blank sheet. I don't feel want to practice. I just want all my friends back, I hate being alone. I hate it.
Drop by drop, my tears' falling. It's too hurt, it felt like my heart would explode!
My phone rang, it was Khun, "My mom is here." She was going to leave me too. She was leaving! That one whole day was such a hell to me.
So, we met at the hall. I hugged her, and said, "Thank you for being my friend". We did try to laugh but that don't even heal my hurt heart. I waved my hand to her until the very end, and I burst into tears again.
Suddenly someone tapped my shoulder, it was Wani, dia pun dah nak balik jugak, and she came all the way to the hall to meet me for the last time, I hugged her and we cried.
So, the exam started, and I entered the hall with my puffy red eyes! haha ;) What can I do. ;p
#crying too much made me sleepy in the hall while drawing xD haha.
Habiss dah pon exam and I was officially MERDEKA! . haha, for one second I forgot about all of my friends were leaving, and I was thinking to run toward Khun and Square, and jump excitedly in front of them, saying, "I'm finally MERDEKA! merdeka!! hahaha!!!"
Suddenly I realized, there's no one there excluding me and my two friends. No one in the aspuri, no one. I stepped in to the silent aspuri. No sounds. No more friends who are always noisy and running all the way. No more noise of people gossiping, dancing, shouting...
"hoi Aina,"
"wei toek"
"wahahaha makhluk Utopiaaa!"
"hi comel~"
Voices kept coming to ears, but when I turned around, there were no one, just abandoned chairs, abandoned bed, ....no one. There no one any more, and I'm finally ..alone.
Tears keep falling non stop , >< auuff it's too painful . Saying goodbye is painful .
But I'm sure, we'll meet again next time :) Our friendship last-longer, I hope. I wish. ^^v
I LOVE ALL OF MY FRIENDS . THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME <3
Me, myself. That's me. :)
